The Ex

Tall.

Dark.

Brown Eyes.

Everything I have always been into. Always.

But this one.

This time.

I broke down.

I lost myself; quite literally.

I did not remember or know my favourite music, color, food ~ You name it.

He took control one thing at a time, without me noticing.

In a way that I did not hear my family warning me.

That I did not hear my friends warning me.

Suddenly when it came to it, I was alone with a cheating husband.

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He had gone for a holiday to his family's house, other country.

Said to see his godparents, grandparents, cousins; you name it.

But since we met online, in a mmorpg game; I had also played with his dad.

His dad had added me onto his friendslist.

He told me;

"Nah, he has not left the house for days. Sleeps during the day, stays up the nights."

Couple of weeks later he comes to me via skype; "I met this chick in US, I'd like to go and have a holiday there."

He goes, 2 weeks, California or Florida. What ever, doesn't matter the slightest to me.

~ During those two weeks I wipe his PC, purge it through from everything.

I find all the dirt and the little lies and the secrets.

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He comes back.

I pick him up from airport with a friend.

Drive home.

All this in silence, speaking finnish only with my friend.

Not a word to him.

Narcissist as he is, he is the victim here of course.

I work during the day, I am gone out during the night.

I spend minimum time at home, turn over to sleep in my bed but that is it.

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Pull forward couple of months and I have drawn divorce papers pulled in.

I make him sign them.

Tell him to buy tickets out and leave.

And eventually he does.

He leaves and he asks me to send his PC to him.

Which I of course did, but I looked for the biggest possible box and left the case rolling there freely. Why? Because I could.

He arrives to his parent's house and his dad calls me the following week, right under his nose;

"I hope you will find happiness, as this clown surely was not it. You deserve everything and more."

I loved that man for seeing my ex as he was, a cheater, a narcissist, everything a woman should avoid by any cost.

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It must've been around 2013 I spoke to him last time.

"Now You'Re Just Somebody I Used To Know."

Ever since I've met and married my best friend, soulmate and the most supportive man I could've hoped for.

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- Ash